....Captain come with us the rest of the crew are safely aboard.....//finale

 I got a pleasent surprise yesterday at the court. KKT finally brought his girlfriend whom I've not seen for the past 2yrs. Well she did put on some weight not that much of course. She kept on bragging about it. Especially her thighs. Well at least she did admit she was overdoing it.

 You must admit that from 85-56 kg is quite a lot of weight lost. It was kind of weird talking to her as well as seeing my friend get mushy mushy. I've seen him get into fights now I see a small puppy wagging its tail.

I thought I'll get jealous.

The funny thing is that I wasn't. I was quite happy for him. I've been through some shit with him before. I guess he finally deserves it. I always tried to help people who were depressed in anyway possible. Crack some jokes to cheer them up. Insult others to make them feel better or just listen to them.

The realization then hit me just by seeing KKT and his girlfriend. I wasn't needed anymore. I don't need to help anyone. I just need to know if my friends are ok that's all. Even if they did lie to me I have to accept the lie and just ignore their true pain. Logically there's no point helping people if you yourself can't help yourself. There's no point even telling a person you'll be there when eventually he/she runs to another. There's no point helping when in return you'll be played out.

 Maybe it was a sign from GOD just to tell me that all my friends are well to do and I should just leave them mainly to help myself.

.......and the captain ignores the offer only to go down with the ship like a fool.

D.N.